14 Weeks

16 Weeks

At 14 weeks, I was down a pound. Now at 16 weeks, I’ve gained a pound. So overall, 2 pounds so far. lol. I feel so round though!! And I feel like people look at me and think, “You do not need that second piece of pizza.”

BUT I DO. If I don’t get pizza, I’m likely to hurt someone. Pizza and Orange Julius drinks. And chocolate cake and Snickers and Salt and Vinegar chips. But pizza more than anything.

HAPPY FALL! I can’t believe it’s already the Fall. The leaves on the trees have been turning since the beginning of September. Awful!!! Now they’re falling off. Time is going way too fast. The holidays, then my birthday and then the baby!

I’m off to go take a shower in our new shower. Thank GAHD its done!

Want to know what drives me crazy?! Kanye West jumps up on stage during Taylor Swift’s acceptance speech, and the WORLD GOES CRAZY. Simpleton Joe WIlson shouts “YOU LIE” while the PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED fucking STATES is speaking to Congress and the world barely hiccups. Jay Leno speaks to Kanye like a principal speaks to a naughty 5th grader and the hearts of America melt a little. Democrats demand Wilson officially apologizes on the floor and he refuses!!!! Granted, he did apologize once and Obama accepted, but MAN UP. Take responsibility.

Next time you’re in a big meeting, shout “YOU LIE” while your boss is speaking and see where it gets you.

OMG WAIT! Look what I found!!! These pictures are from 2006. I was so blonde and tan. Holy shit. lolllll. And this is why you should never upload your naked pictures! Things do not go away once they’re on the internet. GOTTA LOVE THE DAILY CAM SHOTS.

SO FUNNY. Anyway. Im still in bed and I have things to do. Typical! I need to go get stuff to make dinner. I’m breaking out the slow cooker and making CHILI. Exciting. I cleaned the house on Sunday so all thats left is laundry. And dinner. Andddddd GO.

So I work with this woman. We’ll call her, Annoying. Just kidding. Let’s call her A.

A is constantly complaining about her boyfriend. She is a complainer in general, but most of it is about her boyfriend. They’ve been together for 2ish years. Apparently, he never “does anything right”. For her birthday this year, he asked her what she wanted and she said she didn’t want anything. Want to guess what boyfriend got A for her birthday? Correct. Nothing. I joked that she got what she wanted and it went over like a lead balloon. lol.

He doesn’t take her out to dinner. He doesn’t tell her she’s beautiful. He’s not romantic in any sense of the word. He doesn’t help her around the house with cooking or cleaning. He comments on how hot other females are. He’s this, he’s that, he’s not this, he’s not that.

My boyfriend sent me flowers at work not too long ago and A went off on a tangent about the boyfriend. I was nauseous, hormonal, and cranky as all hell. I (kind of, definitely) yelled “JESUS, JUST BREAK UP WITH HIM ALREADY”. What was her answer? “I’d rather be miserable than alone”.

Really? REALLY? I’ve never, in my life, heard someone say that before. I didn’t get it. I still don’t get it. And then I started asking other people.

“Would you rather be alone or miserable?”

Personally, I’d rather be alone. I have great friends that I see often. We go out, we stay in. They are emotionally fulfilling friendships. Sure there were times when they weren’t around and I was all by myself, but no big deal. If you’re not alright by yourself, how can you have a healthy relationship? Depending on someone else for happiness is insanity. If someone isn’t making you happy, go find someone that will. Sure, you have to move out and upset your routine but you’re not the first person who’s ever had to do it. People have survived breaking up and moving out! Don’t wake up at 30, hating your life and the fact that you’ve settled for way less than you want. Or worse, you go into a marriage thinking that will fix things. That’s like putting a bandaid on a bullet wound, my friend.

People have tried to justify it by saying you just get into a routine with the other person, it’s such a hassle to break things off and start over by yourself, you’re giving up on it, no one is ever truly happy, the “new” has just worn off.

I say you’re all crazy and stop making excuses!! It’s ok to admit that it’s not working out.

I do think circumstances are different when you’re married and/or you have a child or children. Thats when you fight, tooth and nail, to work things out. But when you haven’t been together for THAT long and you don’t have any permanent ties…..GET OUT. Life is way too short. If you find your way back to each other and it works out, well that’s great. If not, then you can use that experience as a reference for red flags in your subsequent relationships. After a break up, you wake up the next day, still breathing. I promise.

So, would you rather be alone or miserable in a relationship? Comment! I am really really curious!